how is it possible

how is it possible for me to fall out of everything I thought was right into the arms of something that is so wrong..... but not feel anything as it is happening.

so vague i know.

I wish i knew what I was talking about.

I miss my room mate and she has been gone for less then 6 hours.

so many random thoughts.....

i'm lonely.

...

Rotoscoping is what I should be doing.

"I probably shouldn't tell you this."

"just tell me. You can trust me."

"I know I can, that's why I shouldn't tell you."

"You can't just do that. Now I'm so curious."

"I donno, I guess... I sometimes assume we will get married someday. It would be perfect."

Untitled. Becuase I can.

"Yes.t and when you find me rape me"

Today is blog day.

I really Have so much on my mind recently. I need to type it all down. and I still thank rio for showing me this, I never knew that this could be such a... relief. This is probably going to be a more... abstract blog because I'm browsing deviant art, and sitting in class. so here goes:

"Forbidden love"

by *Tyshea

~~...I wish I was the clove

rfield monster...~~

Those emo pictures with bloody wrists, or blood strewn about a beautiful girls body.... I can honestly say they scare the shit out of me in the most beautiful way.

know what i mean? Rio is texting me form the  fray concert. jealous. I'm a bit bored right now. and i can feel a pimple cluster forming on the side of my head in my hair. I realize i have flawless skin, but just about any imperfection drives me bonkers. I'll agonize over it for a few days for sure.

Jesse just texted me too. He was really fucked up last night and is telling me about it. apparently he was playing mario kart in his head. LOL. and apparently he was driving up mount moon to see the clefairies. LMFAO.

(this is the closest picture to involve mario kart and pokemon)

and here is a clefairy.

sigh. this random blog has really hit the spot. 

Quit it.

Seriously. 

stop.

stop stop stop stop stop.

it's not worth it.

no one will understand.

it will hurt you.

you will hurt others.

YOU WILL LOOSE THE TWO THINGS YOU CARE MOST ABOUT.

stop. 

stop stop stop stop stop.

Go crawl in a hole.

You'll hate yourself more then you do now.

stop. 

words I'll never forget.

 "guess what?"

"what?"

"seriously, just guess."

"um... I don't know."

"I guess I'll have to show you..."